A New Path

Why does it feels like the past is repeating itself like a cycle?
Why does it have to come back to me when least expected?
I hate this feeling.
This feeling of being..
There is hardly anyone I can talk to. If there is, the pain is always there, I'd rather remain silent.
Whatever it is, it is coming back to me. Like how it was when I was in UK. I hate this feeling.
But back then was slightly different, my flatmates were there to help me out.
Now, my family is here, but they misunderstand instead.
There are other important things I have to worry about. Things I really need to clear up for my own good. A career. A life..
Life..
Since when it has been this dull, quiet and dark.
It is never seem to be the same anymore. Games, TV shows. It doesn't feel like it used to.
I am always a quiet person. But I chose to be different. To change over the years.
These days, I feel like I am guided to be who I was before.
A new path?
This feeling..
As long as I don't think about it, the pain will go away. So think less, do things more.
However,
did I do the same mistake(s) unintentionally?..
I better not think about it too much. The pain is overwhelming.