Dormant

You know how it feels when something that bothers you so much and yet you keep hiding it or forget about it. Move on with your life. As how crucial it is or not, that is dependent on how the factors related which have caused all of it.

This feeling which have been kept inside. Restrained from being let loose. From being erupted. Like a dormant volcano waiting to go off. But its a matter of time when it will happen.

As for me, its been days now..4-5 days.
And counting..
Day by day, as much I have been trying to keep it within, I do not know how much will I be able to hold it much longer.

"Avoid negative sources, people, places and habits."

The source to all of this, you might ask? I already know. But I have been telling myself I can ignore it. Nowadays, it seems unlikely...

The emotions collected from these past years which I have forgotten, I have recalled them instead. Piling up like books on the shelves of a library. The thickness of these books tell the stories of particular events and individuals involved in a single month.

To add all those books from these several years, I wonder how much can you imagine I have kept them away in total. Until now...

The limits of an individual shall not be underestimate. Rather how to restrict and break through the limits is a certain matter one shall overcome.

I have chosen not to tell this to anyone before..as I'd rather not hurt anyone instead.

It is a matter of time before all will change..
For better or worst..
It is painful to think about it.