To Think or Not To Think

It has been an eventful month for a start of a new year. Now coming to the second month, I wondered what new challenges will I have to face.

The troubles I have face surely cannot be easily forgotten. But I was told, I am not the only one as there are others out there to help me out. Surely enough it has been a tough decision to go through all of these troubles I have faced. But it does not mean I have to carry the weight on my shoulders myself.

Now to think of the matters for the decision I have to take. It is not easy. Nothing has been easy in life. It is a path of many who have taken. I, myself, am no different than anyone else.

But as to let it go and bring less worries to my life, I eventually have to choose later on. Better yet, now or never.

To think or not to think..about it. That day will come. One way or another.

Smiles

It has been a while since I last made a post here.

There has been a lot of things which had happened. Apart from leaving 2011 behind, there are many which will never returned. Sacrifices are to be made, even though it is to leave a part of me, a "new" part will be made...eventually.

The bonds between the people I know
The bonds between the people I care
The bonds between the people I love..

The smiles of their faces are surely heartwarming. Unfortunately there is bound to be obstacles. Blinded by the negative beings in this world. It is better off I shut my eyes and see the "true" beings within.

As I share my moments with my foster family in Japan, the JENESYS family, my family...and my friends...
It is already the 2nd week of the New Year. Perhaps this path I take will bring these bonds stronger. Though I may not able to hold all with my hands, it is never goodbye. Who knows, we might be looking at the same sky..and think...of the memories we have/had together.

For a better year, I wish those people for the best of luck. Missing everyone in Japan. Hiroshi-san...Uchiyama-san...Tange-san...and many more. Hope to see everyone in the near future.

One of these days

Surely it will come to a day where the things we do in our lives will make a difference. Not for yourself, but for everyone else.

Though I am uncertain how long will I be able to keep this mindset, but surely it would not die down at ease.

As the world is changing bit by bit, we are the one who can make those little changes. Like how a fire starts and spread in a crop field, I believe we could do it in an environmental aspect.

The price of our daily lives is a lot when considering our social lifestyle. However the price of the world is more than you could imagine. The more we indulge in our desires, it comes with a price. The price of creating the dangers we face: global warming, climate change, that is something we cannot fix easily.

For that, I take a step. A step to change it somehow. Even though I might fail, someone will eventually take over and follow the lead.
More responsibilities to come, more challenges to face. Nevertheless, it is not something that can be ignored for too long.
Getting more busy with preparations.
Here I come, JENESYS 2011! Nagoya Team, ready to move out!

Repetance

Over all the things in these many years, there are countless words which cannot be explained. Like how a picture is worth a thousand word. It is the same with how we want to express in our daily lives.

When one would feel remorse over the actions we make, surely enough it makes a difference in what we will see later on. Especially those who take action for their own good. More like a short run effect.

However when the time comes, in the long run, there is a bound to have a huge twirl in our lives. Like how our daily lives has a relatively direct impact in our environment, the ecosystem, our world, Earth.

How long will it stand to live. How long will it have its greenery scenes with the beauty of its animal kingdoms. In the ocean, on land and in the sky.

Wherever we go, have one ever imagined what life would be without these exceptional wonders we see today. The life cycle we are in right now, how long will it continue?

Will our actions would bring a burden to our future generation? Or will it bring peace to everyone?

How our hearbeat keeps on beating, it is the evidence that we are alive and well. Our existence leaves a footprint on our beloved world. But what do we do to show our gratitude to mother nature?

Don't you see how the Earth is crying? Just look at how the sea level continues to rise with the climate change. Like how the polar ice caps continue to melt. More animals are migrating to seek for a new haven from one place to another. But what about us humans? Is there another haven for us? If we continue to upset the balance of nature, where will we stand later on?

Make a difference!
To save the world we live in, to save ecosystem!
GO Green!

Those times...part 2

I have been occupied myself with Uni stuffs, I feel like I am drifting away from people I know.

There are times I wish to spend my time to hang out, meet up, watch movies, have limteh..and more. But it seems like it is harder to do so.
The more I procastinate, the work load is building more and more. The more I study and revise, the migraine keeps coming.

Essays to write, slide presentations to prepare, practising language for writing and grammar tests..

If I was gonna list it out, it would use up too much time.

So I am stuck in this dilemma. Is it because of the difference of everyone is experiencing right now? Our priorities?

I cannot seem to balance my current lifestyle as it is. With entertainment from game(s), music, TV shows, streaming videos, anime series or manga, I hardly have the time for them.
Perhaps I am trying to understand more what is the need of the people of the country. Coz I cannot ignore the fact of what kind of life awaits for the future generation will face.

Whatever we do, it will make a difference. Whether it is the government, environment, business, society, economics or education...there is so much goes into my mind..I feel like...I do not know how to explain it.
Whatever it is...the shape of our heart changes with what our actions do rather than the words spoken.

Those times...

Even when there are those times I or you feel like falling all over...again...and again...

There are times when everyone would feel at lost..

But I am glad to have friends who have been there when I need them the most :)

Cheers!
A song for you? Or for me? Or for everyone?

The pattern

It has been a while since I last updated here due to the busy schedule I have right now.
Ever since I am back in uni I have been working hard. Probably too hard.
Pushing myself towards my limit.

Since I do remember the words which kept me motivated to do my best.
For which it has kept me studying and more.
Rather feel like I owe to those who have supported me. Someday I will repay them.

Alas, I was sick the other day and now I have recovered I got to go back to make up the loss time from resting and back to my assignments, tutorial questions and upcoming tests.

Back at home, it feels like I procastinate too much. Whereas at uni, I study more but spend more in food.

Speaking of food, life in uni is like a recipe for baking cookies.
(Food influence, you know who you are)
I have all the ingredients to bake them.
I can make it as plentiful as you want.
I can carefully mix all what it is needed.
I can anxiously await to eat them fresh out of the oven.
But it will never be satisfying for me.

Why?

I do enjoy my uni life. But having most of the friends who I know in different years, overseas or working I spend more time alone eating my lunch or studying alone in my free time.
Its not all bad when considering the fact now there is a study group I suggested. Slowly getting to know my coursemates more.
It is never enough. I am probably demanding too much these days.
I could guess what I am lacking in need but it is best to leave it be.

So that is my current pattern in my lifestyle now. 6 days of uni filled with reading and...eating.