Wednesday, June 22, 2011
A Lifesaver
A Lifesaver
Sorry but its only available in Chinese since it did happened there.
That's about it for today!
*Updated:
Why is it not worth to go clubbing, especially for guys?
Monday, June 20, 2011
No Affection
Sigh. I know I should be focusing for tomorrow's preparation but I just feel like making a post now. Even though its a short one.
As I really can't stand it for what had happened earlier. For all I wanted was to be calm and be prepared for what I have to do. But..sigh..nevertheless a problem have occured and now I'm pretty much in a fcked up situation. More like I'm releasing my vent now..? Perhaps so.
I've calmed myself down. Thanks to those who were there.
I'm not a football fan, but this just fits everything that goes around me, a motto of Liverpool FC which is:
"You'll never walk alone"
...for those who have continued to support me,
for those who have been there when I need somebody to talk with,
for those who have been there when I need somebody to be with..
Thanks! Thank you very much!
Wish me luck and pray for me!! :)
As I really can't stand it for what had happened earlier. For all I wanted was to be calm and be prepared for what I have to do. But..sigh..nevertheless a problem have occured and now I'm pretty much in a fcked up situation. More like I'm releasing my vent now..? Perhaps so.
I've calmed myself down. Thanks to those who were there.
I'm not a football fan, but this just fits everything that goes around me, a motto of Liverpool FC which is:
"You'll never walk alone"
...for those who have continued to support me,
for those who have been there when I need somebody to talk with,
for those who have been there when I need somebody to be with..
Thanks! Thank you very much!
Wish me luck and pray for me!! :)
Thursday, June 9, 2011
The Past: Understanding
Have anyone of us would try to understand one to another? From the start of a new friendship, a new light is born between two people. A trust, a bond and perhaps even more than that.
Like how one will share their problems and helping out to solve each of their problems. From listening to a person's story, giving them advices and suggestions, talking with them to discuss what are the factors related to the problems or even lending a shoulder.
Any of us could do that. But how much one will care for another? Friendship can never be treated equally but without realising, an individual would treat or help out another in ways which we might be unexpected. For one, we would do an action to comfort a troubled person. But others could do something else in returned. Something which you would wish to happen but never will.
Would anyone of us would be hearing out their problems and give care to figure out a solution to help out? Sometimes, when having someone to be there to hear you out, it can help to clear out those wandering thoughts in your mind.
There are times when we are at loss of words, we could not give a proper response. Just a moment of silence between each other. But having someone to be there for you, it is already means a lot. Anyone of us would probably not realise it but we cannot simply ask to get all the answers from a friend.
Like how one would feel not to burden another with their problems. Not to make them worry too much. Friendship can grow differently with everyone and it also varies with time. The longer we know each other, we learn to accept more of the flaws in an individual. It is not entirely true though. Have you ever felt knowing someone you can put your trust when we first met?
Sadly, the longer we know someone, it does not mean things would work out each other. Some friendship would die eventually. Because of the exposure we have individually, people change over time. Our way of thinking would be different someday. The people we meet, the conversations we have and so on.
"Why do people change so rapidly?", one would ask this question.
Simply put, people change over the years. Whether to change to a better person or would change to worst. Some people learn to adapt to their surroundings over the years in their life. What I am trying to say, there are no such people who would remain forever in the image you have in mind.
As anyone of us would probably have experienced being neglected by the people who you care so much. The possibility of having our own senses being blinded by our own feelings.
People are selfish in their own ways and reasons. For what I had experienced is nothing different with another in this world.
Silence can be one of the best answer when we are in loss of words. As words can be hurtful as how it can be meaningful too. But with silence, it can also create misunderstanding. When one would choose to stay silent and walk in their paths, untold, unexplained. It would probably be too late when the time have passed and it can never fix the problems it had created.
Through silence, it can also create distance with each other. Have anyone of us truly believe things can last forever? I have, but it always come with a price. What we truly desire there would be something in need of an exchange to begin the process. Without a word, from observing in a third person view, it can only create misunderstanding as one would simply judge or assume the possibilities. With adding sugar into our words, we could be easily fooled by them.
Over the years, people move on. For the greater good of their lives. Sometimes the way we think will eventually be different. But for what we accept someone as a friend of ours, it is what we cherish the most in our hearts.
There are times when we believe in a friend in many ways we wish it is the best choice based on the actions that friend have chosen. But reality is cruel, realization of an individual cannot be estimated. It may take years to do so.
If you were in a position where you look into the prespective of others and try to understand the problem(s) associated with someone, what would you do? Simply put, to put ourselves into the shoes of another. Would you accept yourself to be with them?
Why did I ask? Truthfully speaking, there will be a time where I would lose faith in a friendship. Not because of that person. But rather because of myself. As I usually consider how everyone would feel and think of my own feelings. Am I being considerate? Perhaps not.
The pain of one who have suffered over the years cannot be imagined. What is worst is when that pain continues to grow. A scar which can never be healed. But can only be kept hidden.
"No individual can remain the same but what you kept in your heart would remain."
The past is the past. For the memories we have of someone we treasure them close to our hearts. For the many people I have known, the remaining friends I have, how I wish things could last forever...
Friends can always be created when meeting people in different events. But what is so special with having the current friends we have right now, it is not something which can be replaced easily.
New friends < Old friends?
As those times we have shared over the years, I cannot simply let them go. However, when there are more pain given than pleasure, I think it is best to get away from it.
"What is the point of adding much more salt into a container of ocean water. What is the logic?"
My thought:
"What's the point of adding more pain to yourself when you know its best to avoid it?
Though it kills a part of me right now, this is my decision. I'd rather not cross paths to be hurt again. One cannot comprehend the pain for what I have kept in these years secretly.
For that, I realise not many would understand how I feel.
Understanding, how much have "you" understand yourself and others?
Like how one will share their problems and helping out to solve each of their problems. From listening to a person's story, giving them advices and suggestions, talking with them to discuss what are the factors related to the problems or even lending a shoulder.
Any of us could do that. But how much one will care for another? Friendship can never be treated equally but without realising, an individual would treat or help out another in ways which we might be unexpected. For one, we would do an action to comfort a troubled person. But others could do something else in returned. Something which you would wish to happen but never will.
Would anyone of us would be hearing out their problems and give care to figure out a solution to help out? Sometimes, when having someone to be there to hear you out, it can help to clear out those wandering thoughts in your mind.
There are times when we are at loss of words, we could not give a proper response. Just a moment of silence between each other. But having someone to be there for you, it is already means a lot. Anyone of us would probably not realise it but we cannot simply ask to get all the answers from a friend.
Like how one would feel not to burden another with their problems. Not to make them worry too much. Friendship can grow differently with everyone and it also varies with time. The longer we know each other, we learn to accept more of the flaws in an individual. It is not entirely true though. Have you ever felt knowing someone you can put your trust when we first met?
Sadly, the longer we know someone, it does not mean things would work out each other. Some friendship would die eventually. Because of the exposure we have individually, people change over time. Our way of thinking would be different someday. The people we meet, the conversations we have and so on.
"Why do people change so rapidly?", one would ask this question.
Simply put, people change over the years. Whether to change to a better person or would change to worst. Some people learn to adapt to their surroundings over the years in their life. What I am trying to say, there are no such people who would remain forever in the image you have in mind.
As anyone of us would probably have experienced being neglected by the people who you care so much. The possibility of having our own senses being blinded by our own feelings.
People are selfish in their own ways and reasons. For what I had experienced is nothing different with another in this world.
Silence can be one of the best answer when we are in loss of words. As words can be hurtful as how it can be meaningful too. But with silence, it can also create misunderstanding. When one would choose to stay silent and walk in their paths, untold, unexplained. It would probably be too late when the time have passed and it can never fix the problems it had created.
Through silence, it can also create distance with each other. Have anyone of us truly believe things can last forever? I have, but it always come with a price. What we truly desire there would be something in need of an exchange to begin the process. Without a word, from observing in a third person view, it can only create misunderstanding as one would simply judge or assume the possibilities. With adding sugar into our words, we could be easily fooled by them.
Over the years, people move on. For the greater good of their lives. Sometimes the way we think will eventually be different. But for what we accept someone as a friend of ours, it is what we cherish the most in our hearts.
There are times when we believe in a friend in many ways we wish it is the best choice based on the actions that friend have chosen. But reality is cruel, realization of an individual cannot be estimated. It may take years to do so.
If you were in a position where you look into the prespective of others and try to understand the problem(s) associated with someone, what would you do? Simply put, to put ourselves into the shoes of another. Would you accept yourself to be with them?
Why did I ask? Truthfully speaking, there will be a time where I would lose faith in a friendship. Not because of that person. But rather because of myself. As I usually consider how everyone would feel and think of my own feelings. Am I being considerate? Perhaps not.
The pain of one who have suffered over the years cannot be imagined. What is worst is when that pain continues to grow. A scar which can never be healed. But can only be kept hidden.
"No individual can remain the same but what you kept in your heart would remain."
The past is the past. For the memories we have of someone we treasure them close to our hearts. For the many people I have known, the remaining friends I have, how I wish things could last forever...
Friends can always be created when meeting people in different events. But what is so special with having the current friends we have right now, it is not something which can be replaced easily.
New friends < Old friends?
As those times we have shared over the years, I cannot simply let them go. However, when there are more pain given than pleasure, I think it is best to get away from it.
"What is the point of adding much more salt into a container of ocean water. What is the logic?"
My thought:
"What's the point of adding more pain to yourself when you know its best to avoid it?
Though it kills a part of me right now, this is my decision. I'd rather not cross paths to be hurt again. One cannot comprehend the pain for what I have kept in these years secretly.
For that, I realise not many would understand how I feel.
Understanding, how much have "you" understand yourself and others?
Monday, June 6, 2011
The Past: The Innocent
Have anyone of us you would think we never have been in a position where it felt the world is against us?
The feeling when the people we trust simply do not believe in us. Rather put themselves as more of a priority for oneself. Meaning, they think of their own image and reputation while being inconsiderate of how one would feel as the victim.
Now this is a story, for some reason, I have just recollected after talking with my childhood friends a few days ago. But also, after remembering a story from someone else.
In the days when we were all young, we are playful, innocent and naive. For all of us are curious with how and what the world are in store for us while we live on. But curiousity killed the cat, thats what they say.
It was a simply story. It happened when I wanted to go for a toilet break. I was curious with this hole on the wall that was vandalized by some other kids in the toilet. I wondered how one can actually have the guts to kick with force to break the wall. The wall was made out of some material, plastered wall? It wasn't thick and tough. As it wasn't that durable to begin with.
So I put my foot in that hole to see how big the hole was. It was bigger than the size of my foot, if I remembered. I was stupid to be in awe in that moment when suddenly someone came. I startled. My leg jerked and somehow my foot made part of the wall to break some more. It wasn't just someone, it was one of the school's janitor.
With fear in my eyes, I was told to stay put while he (the school's janitor) went off to call someone. I ran..because I was scared and frightened.
Ran with all my might..but I was still in school. So I only went back into class and continued my studies, hoping I wouldn't be found. But I was wrong.
They soon found me and told of my wrong doings. No matter how much I told them the truth, no one believed me. I told my friends, they did believe me especially those who I trust. But without proof, I cannot prove my innocence. As kids, no one can believe in us. Especially adults...
The majority wins while I take the blame for it all. I had to pay to compensate for the damage property of the school. (Not gonna state the value) Now I think about it, my parents didn't believe me too.
It was my mistake. For my curiosity, for my fear, for myself. If I didn't put my foot in that hole, if I didn't run away and stay put, would it have make a difference?
I didn't remember all of this, but for some reason, it just came back to me. Especially when I thought of someone. Was that why I understood that person's feeling of mistrust? I probably did. I probably did not. Till this day, I never have thought to recalled this past. I must have blocked that memory as it was unwanted.
But I learned my lesson. Whether I understood of the situation back then and think about it now, I couldn't believe this part of my memory came back to me.
Then again, from a manga, One Piece, (I forgot which chapter) but the anime episode 496, the thought of the character, Sabo, is somewhat similar to what I think of how adults are. Well...his story was a tragic ending anyway. Its still fictional yet touching.
The past is the past. As what we carry in the present is the burden we had from the past. Whether we truly learned our lesson and realized to be a better person, that is up to anyone of us to take the step forward.
So, have "you" felt that "you" are the innocent one yet no one was there to believe in "you"?
I have and this what have made me to who I am today.
The feeling when the people we trust simply do not believe in us. Rather put themselves as more of a priority for oneself. Meaning, they think of their own image and reputation while being inconsiderate of how one would feel as the victim.
Now this is a story, for some reason, I have just recollected after talking with my childhood friends a few days ago. But also, after remembering a story from someone else.
In the days when we were all young, we are playful, innocent and naive. For all of us are curious with how and what the world are in store for us while we live on. But curiousity killed the cat, thats what they say.
It was a simply story. It happened when I wanted to go for a toilet break. I was curious with this hole on the wall that was vandalized by some other kids in the toilet. I wondered how one can actually have the guts to kick with force to break the wall. The wall was made out of some material, plastered wall? It wasn't thick and tough. As it wasn't that durable to begin with.
So I put my foot in that hole to see how big the hole was. It was bigger than the size of my foot, if I remembered. I was stupid to be in awe in that moment when suddenly someone came. I startled. My leg jerked and somehow my foot made part of the wall to break some more. It wasn't just someone, it was one of the school's janitor.
With fear in my eyes, I was told to stay put while he (the school's janitor) went off to call someone. I ran..because I was scared and frightened.
Ran with all my might..but I was still in school. So I only went back into class and continued my studies, hoping I wouldn't be found. But I was wrong.
They soon found me and told of my wrong doings. No matter how much I told them the truth, no one believed me. I told my friends, they did believe me especially those who I trust. But without proof, I cannot prove my innocence. As kids, no one can believe in us. Especially adults...
The majority wins while I take the blame for it all. I had to pay to compensate for the damage property of the school. (Not gonna state the value) Now I think about it, my parents didn't believe me too.
It was my mistake. For my curiosity, for my fear, for myself. If I didn't put my foot in that hole, if I didn't run away and stay put, would it have make a difference?
I didn't remember all of this, but for some reason, it just came back to me. Especially when I thought of someone. Was that why I understood that person's feeling of mistrust? I probably did. I probably did not. Till this day, I never have thought to recalled this past. I must have blocked that memory as it was unwanted.
But I learned my lesson. Whether I understood of the situation back then and think about it now, I couldn't believe this part of my memory came back to me.
Then again, from a manga, One Piece, (I forgot which chapter) but the anime episode 496, the thought of the character, Sabo, is somewhat similar to what I think of how adults are. Well...his story was a tragic ending anyway. Its still fictional yet touching.
The past is the past. As what we carry in the present is the burden we had from the past. Whether we truly learned our lesson and realized to be a better person, that is up to anyone of us to take the step forward.
So, have "you" felt that "you" are the innocent one yet no one was there to believe in "you"?
I have and this what have made me to who I am today.
Saturday, June 4, 2011
アンハッピーリフレイン
I don't usually share my music taste especially regarding my interest to a certain synthesize program which can create melodies and voices. Reminder Hatsune Miku 初音ミク is not an anime character. It is a program.
But considering some of my favourite music producers, writers and so on, this is one of my favourite, wowaka. As he recently released his first album last month.
Word of warning, his songs have a double meaning so what you might understand would be different from someone's else point of view.
*English and chinese subs are available in some of these songs*
The songs in order from the album:
1. Unhappy Refrain
2. Rollin' Girl
3. Building-Block Doll
4. My Talent
5. The Usual and the Earth Picture-Frame (New)
6. The Palm
7. Shall Not Pass
8. Lineart
9. Two-Faced Lovers
10. In a Gray Zone.
11. Slipping Away
12. Reversible Doll
13. World's End Dancehall
14. Prism Cube (New)
Unhappy Refrain アンハッピーリフレイン
- is this what you call your happiness? Or another mistake in life?..
Rolling Girl ローリンガール
- a song about a girl who can't stand it anymore..but a friend is there when least expected..so stop hurting yourself even more..
Standing in you way とおせんぼ
- "Don't look at me. Just leave me. Smile with your innocent eyes"
Two-Faced Lovers 裏表ラバーズ
- a song to realize what you see is real or not...what to believe in..about love..
World's End Dance Hall ワールズエンド・ダンスホール
- a song about someone who is willing to go with you to the bitter end.."Would you rather die?"
:some interesting interpretation of this song which everyone has their story they could believe in.
"i have a different interpretation: luka is a girl who never used to have friends, so she got imaginary ones (miku) but for this she got bullied, no matter how great a friends miku was she had to abandon her. but this was abandoning herself, leaving her feeling alone and trapped, untill she just wanted to die. she jumped from a building, just in time for miku to return. with nothing she could do to save her, they fell to their death, becoming one person once again."
"Y'know, for some reason, I always interpreted this as that Miku and Luka are lovers and that they're getting teased a lot about it. The teasing really gets to Luka; so much so that she wants to kill herself. Miku just kinda shrugs the teasing off, but when she sees that Luka decides to jump off that building, she jumps with her."
Different song producer, doriko, but still worth mentioning:
Romeo and Cinderalla ロミオとシンデレラ
- a story between two lovers. true love or fake love?..
Another one, supercell:
Goodbye Memories さよならメモリーズ
- a story about the untold feelings towards someone...
A very beautiful song..so innocent yet romantic..just like a dream...a song which describes a part of me very well. Believe it or not?
I have his first album but this second one..someday I'll get this! <3 My most favourite song right now. Thanks to nagi who sang for supercell's work!
Last night, Good night
-no subs, but a favourite from livetune. I have this album <3
Someday, I'll get doriko and wowaka's album. For now be patient. And budget!
Another song! By ぼーかりおどP さま
1/6
- "...to enlighten your sorrows..."
Another simple song:
No thank you! お断りします
One youtuber said "This is the most polite "fuck you" I've ever heard."
For which it is kinda true when you have a bad day!!
Did you listen or read the lyrics of all the songs posted here?
So go on pass your thoughts to me through FB msg! I'll await for a response!
But considering some of my favourite music producers, writers and so on, this is one of my favourite, wowaka. As he recently released his first album last month.
Word of warning, his songs have a double meaning so what you might understand would be different from someone's else point of view.
*English and chinese subs are available in some of these songs*
The songs in order from the album:
1. Unhappy Refrain
2. Rollin' Girl
3. Building-Block Doll
4. My Talent
5. The Usual and the Earth Picture-Frame (New)
6. The Palm
7. Shall Not Pass
8. Lineart
9. Two-Faced Lovers
10. In a Gray Zone.
11. Slipping Away
12. Reversible Doll
13. World's End Dancehall
14. Prism Cube (New)
Unhappy Refrain アンハッピーリフレイン
- is this what you call your happiness? Or another mistake in life?..
Rolling Girl ローリンガール
- a song about a girl who can't stand it anymore..but a friend is there when least expected..so stop hurting yourself even more..
Standing in you way とおせんぼ
- "Don't look at me. Just leave me. Smile with your innocent eyes"
Two-Faced Lovers 裏表ラバーズ
- a song to realize what you see is real or not...what to believe in..about love..
World's End Dance Hall ワールズエンド・ダンスホール
- a song about someone who is willing to go with you to the bitter end.."Would you rather die?"
:some interesting interpretation of this song which everyone has their story they could believe in.
"i have a different interpretation: luka is a girl who never used to have friends, so she got imaginary ones (miku) but for this she got bullied, no matter how great a friends miku was she had to abandon her. but this was abandoning herself, leaving her feeling alone and trapped, untill she just wanted to die. she jumped from a building, just in time for miku to return. with nothing she could do to save her, they fell to their death, becoming one person once again."
"Y'know, for some reason, I always interpreted this as that Miku and Luka are lovers and that they're getting teased a lot about it. The teasing really gets to Luka; so much so that she wants to kill herself. Miku just kinda shrugs the teasing off, but when she sees that Luka decides to jump off that building, she jumps with her."
Different song producer, doriko, but still worth mentioning:
Romeo and Cinderalla ロミオとシンデレラ
- a story between two lovers. true love or fake love?..
Another one, supercell:
Goodbye Memories さよならメモリーズ
- a story about the untold feelings towards someone...
A very beautiful song..so innocent yet romantic..just like a dream...a song which describes a part of me very well. Believe it or not?
I have his first album but this second one..someday I'll get this! <3 My most favourite song right now. Thanks to nagi who sang for supercell's work!
Last night, Good night
-no subs, but a favourite from livetune. I have this album <3
Someday, I'll get doriko and wowaka's album. For now be patient. And budget!
Another song! By ぼーかりおどP さま
1/6
- "...to enlighten your sorrows..."
Another simple song:
No thank you! お断りします
One youtuber said "This is the most polite "fuck you" I've ever heard."
For which it is kinda true when you have a bad day!!
Did you listen or read the lyrics of all the songs posted here?
So go on pass your thoughts to me through FB msg! I'll await for a response!
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