Determination

The determination of many around you may not be seen clearly. Even with careful observation you may not know the true motive or purpose of a person's act.

As the decision to make such moral or immoral act cannot be simply judged. In consideration of both parties, one may fall while the other shall rise. Like how a phoenix may die one day, it will reborn itself from its own ashes. The same principle can be seen in court. But is it fair?

In the same aspect, your determination is similar. The ups and downs of our daily lives may be very harsh and painful. But how determined you are to pull yourself through it shall show how strong is your determination. Your will.

You may never know how amazing that strong will of yours can bring you. I am not saying to be egoistic which you are concern of your own self interest. But rather, think carefully.

For how much you have done..
For how much you have taken..
For how much you have given..
At what cost..?

Then ask yourself. Do you deserve to be where you are? Does your determination have affected the people you have known?

The answer lies within "you". To be answered or unanswered.

Time

Recently, I found some of my old pics ranging between 6-8 years ago. As looking through these pics, I have recalled some of the happy and fun memories I had. With my friends, family and relatives.

From all sorts of activities, things have changed a lot.

But one thing doesn't seem to have change. Me? As if time have stopped for me. For the people I know, I can see how much they have changed in appearance or the person who they are now.

Does time have ever stopped you from making the wrong decisions in life? If so, what would you do?

If time have waited for me, are all those years seem to have been fortunate? For the greater good? Was it all an opportunity? Or is it currently happening?

Seems like I am filled with mixed emotions right now. Postive ones, of course! ;)

For what "time" have given me, it seems I need a moment to think about this.

Warmth ぬくもり

The first thing that you would ever receive when you are born. It is the warmth. The warmth of being held under the arms of your mother. The love given to you as the person who holds you who is responsible giving you life.

No other warmth can be experienced when you are welcomed with open arms. The first warmth is never forgetful. Ever so cherished. Ever so joyful.

We might not ever thank our parents. Truly. For whatever they have done. From raising you to the person who you are. Food, clothes, shelter. The parents' love given towards the child. A newer generation to fulfill their hopes and dreams entrusted into your hands.

Whether it is to create your own world. With the love and hope and the creativity with your imagination you have ever so desired to wish for. Those feelings I can't fully described.

In this world, the warmth you have given to or received from others, how much meaningful is it to you? Did you mean it when you have done or have said?

The words of wisdom and love. The kindness. How can you describe that feeling? The different shapes or forms of warmth.

If anyone in your life would give this warmth, would you cherish it?

Have you ever fully thank the people you have cared in your whole life?

As this feeling of warmth I have received, I shall cherished forever. It is the gift I can never have expected to receive. So thank you! I truly appreciate it. As I am speechless with tears of joy.

For "you", what warmth would "you" cherish? In what shape or form? That is for "you" to decide.

Thoughts

The thoughts of individuals around us are continuous. As a thought can bring questions and answers to be given.

A thought can bring up a topic to start a conversation together. But it also can bring an end to a certainty.

We all have our moment to think of the many possibilities we could do. From an idea. It can lead to bring fortune. As it can lead to an invention, a law, a beginning, a system and so on.

Some have said not to dwell into your thoughts. In other words, not to think too much. But what keeps you from thinking? Do you stare in empty space wondering what is going on with your life? Do you give a moment to yourself and reflect on the challenges and accomplishments you have faced?

From a particular post, this has been showing up a lot as I browse around.

"One problem with gazing too frequently into the past is that we may turn around and find the future has run out on us."

Suddenly, I recall of my own. Something mortifying that it confuses my own senses of my past. Not many have known. Not many have said. Not many will know.

The past can haunt us from what we have experienced. So, from a single thought, it can also bring you to a halt. Though people would say its a fortunate thing to happened in their wildest dreams. From experiencing it, I'd rather say I'm one of the unfortunate being.

From the many thoughts in your mind now, what do "you" think can lead to sorrows and joys? But the answer lies within "you" to decide.

Empathy

When you understand and enter a person's feelings, what does it mean? How does it feel to be able to accept the person who you know?

Being able to share the emotions and feelings of someone?

In a matter of weeks, months or years, no matter how much flaws you can see in that person, you accept that person.

So, to what extent does it take for you to do so? On the other hand, how many do you know in your life who have accepted the person who you are? Despite the flaws you have not realised or admitted to yourself.

For I am able to accept the people around me. Apart from accepting for who I am. I also feel the insecurity of the people I care too much. As a part of me believe, the people you care about most in life are taken away from you too soon. It happened before.

What difference does it make, you might ask? It makes a big difference. Fear. The fear of losing someone who you care the most.

So with empathy, how much have "you" shared or understood?

Believe

It has been a tremendous event in Japan. Earthquake, tsunami, radiation leakage (?), fire outbreak. I pray the people of Japan would able to pull it through.

The moments of believe. As for many would think believing in a purpose or a reason could help move on in their lives. A motivation.

As the current situation calls for this, I just feel like posting about this matter.

When you believe that something you are doing can be done, it gives you hope. Hope which could brighten your daily life. Hope which could also blind your senses and go on endlessly in the wrong path.

When things everywhere you go are against you, there is hope which you believe in.
Without hope, would you wander on and thinking you are doing the right way?

I, myself, am confused with what to believe in. As I want to believe for what I am doing could give me hope in life. For that hope, I wonder if my actions are the right things to do. Or is too much? Or too little? Though I can't thank enough for the people who help me when I needed it most. Especially on last Tuesday (08/03/2011).

It is a test of your determination in what you believe in. When your feelings waver, your determination feels weak. Your confidence would slowly go down the drain. Hence, a strong determination can bring many wonders.

So I continue on believing. Believe I will live on. Stand tall and go forward. Go with the flow.

Inappropriate it may seem to others. I beg for forgiveness if I ever done so. As it is all I have.

Above all, what do "you" believe in? Would "you" grasp on what to believe and live on? The answer lies within.

For Someone

"Imagine you are in a vast plain field, lying on the ground. Look up into the sky. Seeing all the stars shining brightly. As you look through the endless sky, the stars twinkle in the everlong night. The wind blows calmly around you, reminding you of how people who shine as brightly as they are, those who you know. As for those cherish moments you could remember and treasure, think of those happy moments you have. Close your eyes. Slowly wander in your joy and eventually go to sleep. Forgive and forget, so apologize to them. As that wind blows all the negativity away in you. Hopefully. Sleep well. Good night."

This is dedicated to someone. That is actually a text msg I made last night. For that someone, you know who you are. As I hope you will be alright. Someday. As I'm always here whenever you need me.

Regrets

Here I am thinking what have we done in our lives we could have regret.
Surely, there are many things you can think of that pops out of your head right now.

For instance,
Why did I choose to go study overseas? Instead of studying locally here.

Simple enough: I can't deny what my parents say which is right and best for me.

Regret:
After my studies. Unemployed, seeking for jobs.

Of course, there is more to that, but I'd rather not say.

Now, for whatever you have done which you thought would have been the best solution or actions taken in that very moment. Have "you" regret it?

It's better to know the outcome given the fact how much effort you have put into it. Or have you over thought of yourself from doing it?

From your point of view, it may seem "so-so" but what about the other person? What does that "person" thinks? What is his/her point of view in that matter?

Does it help keeping it in yourself thinking "SUCCESS!" or "FAILURE!" for the rest of your life?
There are different form of regret which is unimaginable and yet obviously it can start a chain of reactions. From a personality change to a global disaster. (World War 2?)

Nevertheless, regret is undeniably an experience in your daily life that goes in a cycle. An old 'regret' and new 'regret' comes along.
Thinking of rewinding back to the past. Changing the way who you are now. For whatever your past was, it has brought you here. Sitting here in front of your screen. Reading this.

So, from all those regrets, would "you" accept them and move on? Or stay where "you" are?

Selfish

In this world, everyone have their own reason to live. Whether it is for the good or bad, there is never right or wrong. It is a matter of what people would judge their actions which is circumstancial. Sadly, being judgemental and stereotype others are too common these days.

Now, being selfish is what many have not noticed or failed to admit themselves personally.

Feelings for holding your interests as a priority of yourself and regards the person's well being is more important of others.

This feeling can be interpreted in many ways. Though I wish I could use an example(s) more appropriately, I feel I am selfish myself.

When you are happy with someone, you want more than this. But seek for someone better than the current one. Is it insecurity that holds you hanging at the edge of the cliff alone? Is it best to be with someone rather than be alone?

However, as a way of life, people would find the pursuit of their happiness. There is never right or wrong. But on how the actions are taken as a consideration. Words can be manipulated in many ways. Feelings cannot lie so easily. Actions speak out the truth.

So are "you" selfish? Maybe yes or no, what would "you" do?